Thursday, April 27, 2017

That Long Last Time...

If you’ve ever wondered about the title of my blog, Long Last Time…this post will hopefully satisfy your curiosity.  I think of myself as a dreamer, not so much a realist.  So, my reasons behind the mysterious blog title might not make sense to some of you….but all you dreamers and free spirits out there, this is for you.  

Have you ever watched a movie or listened to a song and one moment, one verse, one part of the melody, one scene, or one anything in it made you feel happy, inspired, and maybe even a little hopeful?  Well, Long Last Time are all those things to me, and more.   It's like...when these two people are so incredibly and deeply in love with each other that even they are afraid to admit it to themselves, because the timing is never right.  The world gets in the way.  The journey of each of their lives don’t allow them to be together, whether it be family, location, jobs, or not wanting to hurt someone else.  It’s the universe telling them that they can’t be, or shouldn’t be, but the two of them unconsciously know that they will never love another person the same…ever.   Or…two people who just can’t make it work, because it’s just too complicated to stay together, but the love they have for each other is undeniable.  Even the love between a parent and a child.  That unconditional love that can’t be compared to any other love in the world.  And in all these love stories…there’s always goodbye.  There’s always that tragic, heart-wrenching moment when their eyes meet that Long Last Time and they know, just by looking at each other what words could never explain.  It’s that Long Last Time that is so full of unexplainable emotions that no one will ever be able to convey how it felt, as only their hearts will know the truth.  

Dreamers,…see I told you.  In reality, I don’t think many of us lead such a romantic life.  Haha.  That’s what our guilty escapes are for, right?  Movies, books, and music.  If I find a movie that has that “Long Last Time” moment…it quickly becomes a favorite, because I will probably only seen it a few of times in my lifetime.  Well, the last movie I watched, LaLa Land, was completely spectacular!   I will let you watch it to see for yourself…but the very definition (in my eyes) of “Long Last Time” was so present in that movie that it made me want to burst into tears first…then it had a surge of hope and inspiration in my soul!  It captured me so much, that I could have quit my job, flown to Europe, written a novel, sang to strangers, camped out under the stars….Yes, all the things I’m afraid to do…because for a split second…it made me fearless.

My main influence for my “Long Last Time” blog title came from this song by my beloved Patty Griffin…which, to me, comes as close to interpreting the feeling as anything possibly can.
Here are some of the lovely, enchanting lyrics…

Well, he jumps in the taxi… for the sky
He's off to slay some demon dragonfly
And he looked at me…that long last time
Turned away again and I waved goodbye
In an envelope, inside his coat, is a chain I wore, around my throat
Along with, a note I wrote
It said "I love you but, I don't………even know why"
But darling, I wish you well
On your way to the wishing well
Swinging off of those gates of hell
But I can tell, how hard you're trying
I just have this  secret hope
Sometimes all we do is cope
Somewhere on the steepest slope, there'll be an endless rope
And nobody crying.

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